The bling bang.

I need to know if I’m insane or merely incredibly intelligent

i’ve read a lot of deleuze and guatarri lately

i often notice that i’m radically different from the others

i can’t build affective bonds (i believe)

i only like sex because of power (foucault?)

[sometimes i fear the way philosophy, science and literature {art?} obsess me]

i think i didn’t grow up with judeochristian taboos, such as sin

but ethically japanese

but few things feel shameful to me these days

and those where shame is involved, i discard logically

because satisfying certain needs

(long term relationships

work

academic recognition

success)

goes against the basic principles i follow,

although fitting in and being normal is easier.

I’m scared of ending up in a bad trip

and of being interned while i’m still lucid.

This is a new beginning.

Tags: foucault, schizo